Archive for Relationships/Friendships

Lovely weekend.

Went to sheffield this weekend and went to a night called Frozac, which was awesome. Although my friends kept disappearing but that gave me the chance to meet some lovely people, i didnt actually buy one drink in there hah i just kept getting handed them, which probally isnt the savest way to go about things but i was brassic.

A lovely boy was helping run the night and I’d met him once before (and he tried to kiss me but i wasnt in the right situation to be kissing people) but id seen him around a lot before. I ended up spending most of the weekend with him which i wasnt complaining about, Id always thought he was totally out of my league but aparently not, he said the sweetest things to me and actually made me feel about a million dollaass (apart from when i was hungover and felt like a poop), i cant wait to see where this is going to go, he’s suggested some things but i dont want to put pressure on it yet. I cant wait to see him again. Its annoying that he lives so far away and i ave to go work in scotland this summer 😦 thats why i cant really get into anything at the moment. ohhh well we’ll see.


Im not answering that damn phone.

because..well just because.

I talked to my friend last night that i thought id made a mess of our frendship and he seems ok with me, but you never can tell with that one. I dont want to fall out with him as i cherish our friendship so much i really enjoy spending time with him, i need to stop getting drunk around him though 😦 its ok if he’s drinking too but if hes getting stoned i have to drink because i get bored otherwise.

I also need to learn how to know when im over staying my welcome. Ive been getting better of late but…i dunno maybe im just a bit para.

Maybe we should only hang out in the day then i wouldnt get drunk and shout at him 😦

We once had an amazing time in london together and we went to leamington a few months ago and it was the most pointless trip but it was funnnn. I miss our good times together and want them back 😦

Valentines day: Conclusion

So it was the usual boring day 😦

I was ment to see a friend but as usual boys are shit. Why organise to go out when your just going to bail?? REDDICK! I could have organised to do something else with friends. I honestly dont mind if you bail just let me know so i can do something else.

I seem to be falling out with all my male friends at the moment…is it time for lesbianism now?

Anyways i did my make-up all nice for nothing.

On a brighter note im making cakes for about 1000 hungry bikers on sunday and ive only got a week to make them all, do you know how much they eat??? Itsa a challenge, should be fun.

Ta Ra

A public apology.

For the last blog, i guess i didnt know all the facts, still dont.

I didnt think that many people read this or took any notice. Apart from Carmel.

Words can hurt and i never mean to make anyone pissed off.

Im sorry because first and foremost he’s my friend.

This blog wasnt the best idea was it. I didnt think people cared, i just wanted somewhere to vent. I currently feel like im self destructing. When did i become this person?


Relationships from a singletons point of view.

Im going to talk about it again i have a lot to say on this subject.

I have pretty clear eyes at the moment(maybe a little bitter an jealous but pretty much clear, im wearing non UV protective shades) and you people dont know how lucky you are! You can actually feel something, even if its pain. I personally am completely numb, which is boring and only boring people get bored.

I was discussing with a friend earlier:
People seem to get into relationships because thy are bored with their life, they need discraction but they dont really have feelings for this person. i know because ive been there and done that.

People just put up with SHIT because they would rather that than be alone or they think their not good enough for anyone that would treat them nicely (im not sure if this counts for me because i dont last very long with people that are actually nice to me!)

Guys just seem to look for girls that tick the right boxes, which is mainly- for alot of guys:
Hot.. check
Can hold an alright conversation..check
Sucks dick..check

Girls look for so much more than that…well some dont. i do. this is my check list:
Not a complete social retard
Got a job
I wanna rip their clothes off
Actually thinks twice about me.
Doesnt cheat.

Is that too much to ask?
Maybe i just dont wanna waste me time.

Although having said all that i have friends that are in relationships and sure they argue but their awesome to hang out with and i love them being together.

Ill stop my moaning now.

Single Life.

So i’ve been single for nearing on 3 years now, and people say “its because you travel too much” or “you just havent found the right one.” And my mother says “you dont want to settle down when your 21 anyway”. Well this is all very true but i dont actually care, I’m not a massive attenion seeker, yes i talk alot…very loudly, but sometimes a girl needs to feel like shes wanted. And i dont, i havent for years, its depressing, am i the only one who has crushes on people????

When i was living away in Toronto i met a guy that i could have spent the rest of my life with, he was funny and pretty and into the same music and things as me, i want to rip his clothes off and he actually seemed quite into me. Unfortunatly he had a missus (who was a lawyer!!). So i did find one of the “right ones” just not at the right time.

I REALLY dont understand people that go from relationship to relationship just because their lonely, dont get me wrong IM lonely (why do you think im writing this?) but i get annoyed with people too quickly, i get that spark with hardly anyone, when i do its usually with someone i cant have (maybe that says something?). Theres this one girl i know (not naming any names)and i dont think shes been single for more than a couple of weeks her whole life. Odd.

Maybe its the fact that i think im too good for anyone, which i dont think is right because i dont have the biggest ego known too man.

Anywho i currently have a crush on a friend im sure itll go away in a few weeks as he lives far away. But it still kinda hurts when i know all i wanna do is look after him and touch him up, and last time i saw him he was so sweet to me.

What turns men off me? Im loud, annoying at times, party too much? drink too much? smoke? no job (thats a biggy i guess), dont drive, dont have my own place. Urgh the more i write the more its becoming apparent why i am single, I wouldnt even wanna date me.

But then again ive got to count my blessings as i dont have to answer to anyone, i can do my own thing, talk to any boys, dress how i like, have no arguements.

Suppose its not all bad. Sometimes id just like a hug and cuddle, which i did get off my crush and made me feel like i was high. 🙂

ok that enough for one day. Dont feel too sorry for me.
Ta ra