For the last blog, i guess i didnt know all the facts, still dont.
I didnt think that many people read this or took any notice. Apart from Carmel.
Words can hurt and i never mean to make anyone pissed off.
Im sorry because first and foremost he’s my friend.
This blog wasnt the best idea was it. I didnt think people cared, i just wanted somewhere to vent. I currently feel like im self destructing. When did i become this person?
xx
I’m heading back to the farm on monday, because i start my new job soon so there really isnt much point in starting a job, but i want something to do.
Actually quite excited to get back out there, and i havent ran at all for the last few days so itll help me get fit.
Im bored so i thought id show you my famous fishermans pie.
Ingredients:
fillet of smoked fish (i usually use haddock because its cheap)
fillet of white fish meat
Prawns
Tinned salmon or tuna
frozen peas
1 onion (chopped)
Potatoes
Chedder cheese
salt and pepper
nutmeg
parsley
cloves
milk
butter
extra virgin olive oil
Right so to start chop up the fish fillets and tinned fish (i use tinned as well as fillets because i like the keep the fillets in chunks and the tinned flakey) and place them in a pan and cover with milk, dont bring to the boil as the milk will separate but let it simmer, then add the cloves (i use 4 because i like the taste, esp in the winter because it always reminds me of christmas. But you can use 2 if you like a milder taste), onion and olive oil (just a teaspoon) leave to simmer for half an hour.
Meanwhile chop up your potatoes and put on the boil in salted water, do as many potatoes as you wish i always do about 5 large as i like alot of potatoes and my dish is quite big.
Take you fishy mix off the hob and sive the contents but keep the fishy liquid. Then place the butter in the pan to melt it and add the flour sirring (i use a whisk but you dont have to) so you make a roux, next add your fishy liquid and keep on the heat still sirring so it thickens then add your nutmeg, parsley (be generous with both), peas, fish and shrimps (put the shimps in at the last minute because if they cook for too long they go chewy). When its all mixed together place in your dish. Remember to take you the cloves- i ALWAYS do and someone usually get a big bite of a clove and its not the nicest.
Take the potatoes off the hob, drain and mash. mix with milk and butter (or cream if your feeling naughty) i always put some chedder in the mash as well as on top as it gives it a richer flavour. To make your mash super smooth i use an electric whisk for 2 minutes at the end.
You want the top of the mash to be a bit spikey so that it was chrispen in the oven, so just run a fork opver the top, sprinkle with cheese.
You can leave this for a few hours until your ready to cook it, then just put it in the oven at about 190 degrees for 30 mins or 45 if youve let it cool.
Goddamn i wish i had a deep fryer.
So you know how most good batters are made by adding sparkling water or beer because the gas makes the batter more bubbly and crunchy. Well how about doing some tempura with ginger beer??? how good does that sound? just find some veg that goes well with ginger like chilli if your feeling really spicy, or you could just do greens and yellow peppers.
Just a thought.
Stolen of carmee who stole it of “Something Vague That We’re Not Seeing”
1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Lived in Canada.
Kissed a Chinese man
Lived illegally in a house
Took mkat
2. Did you keep your New Year’s Resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i didnt make any i never do. so no i wont make any for this year.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
No my friend Laura did but i still havent seen the baby.
4. Did anyone close to you die?
nah, although i did have to come home from Canada cos my grandma was about to do one, but shes still here.
5. What countries did you visit?
Canada!!
6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
Money
7. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
15/04 Went to canada
!/12 Came home from Canada
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Setting myself up and finding a really god job that LOADSA people woulda wanted (apart from i started hating it and left! haha)
9. What was your biggest failure?
Being selfish.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
i got a throat infection which was pretty nasty.
11. What was the best thing someone bought you?
a futon. it was lush.
12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
Hannah, for going on a cruise. Mine for escaping the clutches of rugby.
13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
myself
14. Where did most of your money go?
Rent.
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Sneeky dees, half price fajitas every tuesday.
16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
La roux, in for the kill. Lying under the stars with the infamous Logan Salter, surrounded by homeless people.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Ermm well i was pretty depressed this time last year, but i was looking forward to moving away.
b) fatter or skinner? Skinner, by quite a bit i think.
c) richer or poorer? poorer.
18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
socialising
19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Getting drunk.
20. How do you plan to spend Christmas?
At home with the fam, cooking crimbo dinner, its my fav day and my fav meal of the year
21. Did you fall in love in 2009?
I had a pretty intense crush.
22. How many one night stands?
ek like 3 :S
23. What was your favorite TV program?
Gilmore girls, but its finished 😦 come dine with me is a goodun. Anything with Gordon apart from hells kitchen. Anything with Jamie. d’aww
24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Nope i dont hate anyone. i Have a strong dislike for a girl, ill never see her again though (hopefully) but i didnt know her this time last year.
25. What was the best book you read?
Twilight series, yes im one of them.
26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Nothing, ive been completely rubbish with music lately.
27. What did you want and get?
Independence
28. What did you want and not get?
Love.
29. What was your favorite film of this year?
i thought district 9 was amazing.
30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I had a big house party i was 21.
31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Having lots of money
32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
50’s clothes 40’s hair.
33. What kept you sane?
HAHA i just read carmels answer, she said me. noice! Nothing kept me sane i went a little crazy this year, actually i hate to say it but facebook and talking to all my friends at home.
34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Gordon Ramsey
35. What political issue stirred you the most?
urgh, i try not to get involved, ignorance is bliss my friends.
36. Who do you miss?
Hannah Kav
Logan Salter
Katrina Konyen
Kanchana Vongphakdy
Caroline Ansty
Victoria Melia
37. Who was the best new person you met?
all of the above
38. What was the best thing you ate?
Stars cousins Lemon fluff. Or my christmas dinner.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009?
Dont take the piss out of people youve only just met.
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
no
WHHYYY do i do it? i drink all the time and what do i get in return a hangover and regrets.
I dont regret anything in life apart from stuff ive done when drunk.
I am a penis.
Im going into hiding for a bit, well until ive forgotten how much of an idiot i am when drunk, which will be in about 3 days. Just im time for the weekend.
At least im running away soon. I wont be able to drink there.
Im going to talk about it again i have a lot to say on this subject.
I have pretty clear eyes at the moment(maybe a little bitter an jealous but pretty much clear, im wearing non UV protective shades) and you people dont know how lucky you are! You can actually feel something, even if its pain. I personally am completely numb, which is boring and only boring people get bored.
I was discussing with a friend earlier:
People seem to get into relationships because thy are bored with their life, they need discraction but they dont really have feelings for this person. i know because ive been there and done that.
People just put up with SHIT because they would rather that than be alone or they think their not good enough for anyone that would treat them nicely (im not sure if this counts for me because i dont last very long with people that are actually nice to me!)
Guys just seem to look for girls that tick the right boxes, which is mainly- for alot of guys:
Hot.. check
Can hold an alright conversation..check
Sucks dick..check
Girls look for so much more than that…well some dont. i do. this is my check list:
Not a complete social retard
Funny
Got a job
I wanna rip their clothes off
Actually thinks twice about me.
Doesnt cheat.
Is that too much to ask?
Maybe i just dont wanna waste me time.
Although having said all that i have friends that are in relationships and sure they argue but their awesome to hang out with and i love them being together.
Ill stop my moaning now.
Yes im part of the million strong crowd.
i HATE it, i try to find jobs, i go for interviews and get promised jobs, i hand out my CV again and again and again to no avail. What am i supposed to do?
I stand in line once every fortnight to say to somebody: no i havent done any work in the last 2 weeks (rub it in why dont you), and everyone just satres at each other with dead eyes (probally because i sign on on a friday and everyones hungover, i know i usually am, having to stop myself throwing up on the desk!)
Most people drink to just escape for a night and im not suprised these people turn into alcholics, im thinking about it myself, ive lost ALL motivation, i want to do stuff but i just cant find it in myself to do it.
Anyways im off to post a letter. blahhhhhhhhh
Random Thoughts of a bored British youth. 